We lost a baby today.
Before we saw her face
Before the name came
Before all the hugs and kissy face
Before the car seat
And the tiny diapers snapped in place
Before all the late night howling
We expected, the anticipated yowling – we were zapped.
We lost a child today
And the profound adoption blues set in
When our trusted birth mom changed positions then
Influenced by her own estranged family lines – repositioned
That elusive family support she always dreamed of -
But knew she might not ever realize
Drugged and dazed by long lost sweet attention
Needed desperately, not received and only briefly mentioned.
We lost a precious girl today
To unknown egos and grandiose ambitions -
And for her sake, these dreams, we too desire -
Yet history written seems unlikely to transpire,
Farewell - to the ghost family we heard was ever distant
That in that decisive moment became perfectly resistant
Our sadness is beyond words and solemn letter spaces,
It is our hearts, two empty vessels, needing warm embraces
Knowing – it is every thing – even time, that our love replaces.
J.E. Dorsey – 11.16.10 for Doug Claybourne & L.D. Napier
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